That Bad

Was I truly that bad?
You always acted
As if I had always done it
Like I always hurt you
No matter what I said or did
You were always wounded
Always made me feel bad for it
Like I was such a horrible person
Were we really that bad?
Always pointing the finger at the other
Swearing the fault was not ours
It had to be you
You thought it was me
If that's true, tell me something
Why did you insist on me so much?
Being with me left you tormented
As it left me tortured
It drove me crazy
It made you insane
Did we love each other that bad?
We spent more time hurting
Than we did smiling
But when we smiled...
We felt so lucky and in love
We swore we were each others true love
Why if we were all that bad
Why did we want each other so bad
You never accepted me
I never settled for you
Yet we remained persistent
We were left angry hurt and tortured
But we couldn't bring ourselves to regret
That our love had existed
That everything that happened happened
Because it was really that bad.

J. A. Burgundy

September 2015