EX: Phase ||

I guess 

I guess I was too dumb, too naive
Obviously since in you I believed.
I believed that you loved me
Genuinely cared for me
Regardless of how you'd treat me
I accepted your strong stubborn personality
I guess in a way you really did love me
But not the way I loved you
I accepted you and your breathtaking flaws 
I took your bad with the good
Because to me it all complemented you
Never dared to try and change you
Nothing you'd say nothing you'd do
Made me question or doubt you
Constantly defended you
Explained that they didn't know you
That there was a deeper side to you
A beautiful side
This stunning light
Anger seeped through me when tears filled your eyes
Because some shit hurt you
You don't realize what I wanted to do 
To everyone who made you cry
To anyone who brought hurt & pain into your life
I don't think you'll ever truly understand
How hurt and pained I now am
You turned your back
On all we had
You allowed your stubbornness
guide your actions
You followed your set mind
And you hurt me without thinking twice
You said ride or die
But you kicked me out to to the curb
In the middle of the night
I stood there, watching you drive by
A child with her bear in hand
Half asleep trying to understand
Why?
Why do we love so deeply?
So profoundly ?
Why do we believe in loving
How did someone you knew so well
Trusted with all your will
Just turn into someone into something
Something you never saw coming
An enemy.
To you my darling ex
I may be alone in the dark
Where you left me in black of night
But I'll find a way, I'll find the light
Then I'll find you
Just to show you
How I became the coldest of winters
How my heart turned to ice
And I'll Destroy who you thought I was, without thinking twice
As you once did
And You'll regret it.

J. A. Burgundy

August 2015